Someone please help…
Hello,
Sorry I have been away for quite sometime (for those that actually noticed).
For the past couple of months I have been telling it as I know it and given advise where I felt capable. But now I need someone to come to my rescue, my chest has become a tonne heavier, my head feels congested and my general being seems cornered. Don’t fret, I don’t have some kind of terminal disease, what I have is called employment.
This horrible, horrible thing is slowly taking the life out of me, its making me go crazy, and killing off my sweet youth days one after the other.
I have options of getting out of it any second I wish, I have brilliant plans and a firm foundation to prosper in life I even have potential and resources to be wealthy but the decision to go 100% private is still not as easy as it looks/sounds.
You see, I have an immense desire to do things with the utmost brilliance and perfection, but when I look at the trail I have left behind during my time as an employee, I don’t see much that will have people talking/writing about after I am gone. This bothers me and gives me sleepless nights. Much as I hate working for someone and giving them 9 hours of my precious time everyday and probably 10 hours of my brain power everyday, I still don’t feel like I have done enough to be proud of in the employment world. Don’t get me wrong, I have done some really good stuff, but not so great.
Now I feel like I can’t take it anymore, it looks like I am closer to resigning, because my whole set up does not have space for bosses anymore. My passion to work towards some company’s objective and see it prosper has been replaced by my own desire to start building an empire of my own.
How can I handle this?
Peace.
Arthorious.
Arthurscount's Blog 
Take a deep breath and step off the ledge. Leap into the unknown. It’s only the voice of fear telling you there are good reasons to stay at this job when it’s sucking the life out of you. Don’t get to the end of your life, sweetie, and wish you’d taken more risks.
Do it now.
Be the master of your life, not a slave.
Follow your heart.
Fuck what anyone else thinks/says/does.
Leap.
Go on.
A deep breath taken, my next move is to step off the ledge. I like your advise, I fee like someone has slapped me in the face and told me to wake the fuck up. I am bigger than this, I am great, I am the shit. If the grass is not greener on the other side, I’ll plant my own. I have made up my mind, come December 31, 2010, I am taking control of this ship.
Thanks switie.
Btw, how’s the Manuscript coming along?
Yay!! I love a person who is willing to step off the edge when necessary. Well done.
Fear might come and whisper silly things in your ear. My advice? Ignore it. Keep focused on what you want.
Ah, the manuscript, thanks for asking; it’s a bit of a mess, which I see as an excellent sign. Milk Fever was too, and I managed to sort that one out, so I guess I will with this one too.
Keep us posted about how you’re going…
I’ll keep you updated.
I wish you the best with the Manuscript, and you rock so I am sure you’ll kick butt with it.
Noo…dont leap…the grass is not always greener. I know what you mean thou….but as long as am doing something I enjoy…then i dont mind if i work for myself or for some1 else. Someone has to work for someone. And when you work for a company you can take the piss as much as you like (because a company is not your friend)…just like now….am going outside for a coffee and smoke 🙂
I agree with you ibs but not 100%, say about 60%. I believe that as long as you enjoy what you do then you should not have a problem really. Problem is I hate what I do, I am an accountant and hate it to bits. I also believe that someone has to work for someone, my problem is I am currently placed at the wrong side of that equation. I don’t know about taking a piss as much as I want, I believe that whether I am working for someone or not, it’s still my time so I can never afford to take a piss as long as I can, also, my vision, aspirations and ambitions do not permit me. So i agree with you my good friend but I’m gonna have to go with Lisa’s advise on this one (It’s not like you and I ever agree on anything really 🙂 ).
You will never know what is on the other side of the door till you open it. Different things motivate people. If the grass is not greener something else will motivate you to paint it like you said. Not having the little sense of security you have or comfort knowing you shall get a pay check at the end of the month will become what wakes you up in the morning. Forget the fear and just think bout the pride that will put a smile on your face out of the pink due to ur accomplishments 😉
Sweeet!!!!! This is what I want to hear. And like I said to one of my readers, IF THE GRASS IS NOT GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE, I’LL PLANT MY OWN FUCKIN GRASS, WATER IT, FEED IT WITH NUTRIENTS AND WILL MAKE IT AS GREEN AS THEY COME!
Thanks Leonorah.